Love me
07 Apr 2009 1 Comment
in Expressions, Love Life Tags: Love Life, Love me
I’m currently listening to Collin Raye’s “Love me” through Youtube. It’s a love song that I used to play in the cassette tape player when I was in college. I used also to borrow the cassette tape from a friend.
I love the message of the song. Here is the lyrics…
I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me. He said,
“Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma’s daddy didn’t like me none, but I loved your Grandma so.”
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said:
If you get there before I do, don’t give up on me.
I’ll meet you when my chores are through;
I don’t know how long I’ll be.
But I’m not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I’ll be loving you. Love, me.
I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I’d never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.
If you get there before I do, don’t give up on me.
I’ll meet you when my chores are through;
I don’t know how long I’ll be.
But I’m not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I’ll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I’ll be loving you. Love, me.
The Soldier in Me
31 Mar 2009 4 Comments
in Love Life, Reflections Tags: Love Life, Soldier
The moment a soldier is wounded, he becomes more courageous.
I think that a blood of a soldier is tainted within my soul. I am a soldier in my own way.
I fought for the love that I thought was mine. I did all my best to show it. There were times that I was victorious against the war of anger, hatred or even angst. There were times that I almost fell in the abyss of nothingness…in the place where I thought that I thought I was alone. There were moments of triumphs…moments of failures.
Those pains I felt in losing in the battle were nothing compared to the joys I got in winning it.
But, let me emphasize that being a soldier does not mean “losing” or “winning”.
A soldier has a motto of “no retreat, no surrender”. That’s what I also believed before.
Now, I cannot take the deep wounds. I will take a rest first and look back of all the battles I fought for. I believe I already did my best. I have no regret in doing so. Just let me take a rest…for a soldier like me also gets tired of facing the enemies, especially when my comrade is wandering in the wilderness.
After all, taking a rest does not mean giving up.
The trip to Passig
08 Mar 2009 Leave a Comment
in Friends, Love Life, Reflections, Travels Tags: Friends, Love Life, Passig, Travels
It’s one of my heart’s desires last year to visit Passig, an islet located at Brgy. Bato, Sta Cruz, Davao del Sur. I was motivated to go there when Br. Randy Tudy (the principal of CJC-BED Department) told me that Passig is already developed. He let me look at the pictures he took when he went there. Then, a plan to visit there sprouted like a monggo seed. I informed Real, my friend, about this. She, too, was interested. We planned to visit Passig.
When my birthday came (Nov. 2008), someone asked me where I wanted to go. I immediately answered him that I loved to visit Passig. He told me that he would treat me. But that “promise” vanished like a vapor in the wind. I hoped like a desperate child waiting for the ice-cream that was being promised to be given. I waited. I waited for nothing. Or was it me who was not able to wait for the date that he would treat me? I don’t know.
Then, last Thursday, my friend Janice informed me that the “Jhierks” (my kabarkada in college) would go to Passig. It was scheduled yesterday, March 7. I immediately told her that I loved that idea.
The plan: We would meet at emily’s house at 7:00 AM.
I arrived past 9:00 AM at the agreed waiting place because I washed my clothes. The other reason was that I had also a catharsis of emotions. I and my sister had a “silent” quarrel. (na-okey din naman)
Neil, Rene, Janice, Duploy(husband of Janice), Brian (brother of Neil) and me rode in a tricycle. We paid P12.oo each. Emily rode on a motorcycle with his friend.
At the “pantalan” of Bato, Sta. Cruz, we paid P20 for our fare for the “banca”, back and forth. It only took us about five minutes to dock at Passig.
Passig has indeed transformed for the better. There are already presentable cottages. There are coconut trees. White sand is also evident in the area.
We stayed in an open cottage. Nagsugba ug isda ug pork. Then, istorya-istorya…Real and his boyfriend Cris came at around 11:00 AM.
Then, we ate lunch.
Much of the time was spent for “talking”. The topic revolved about life…about love life.
It was 4:00 PM, when some of us nakapagdecide na maligo na sa dagat. I stayed at the cottage. Joel and his gf Jean were there, too.
Cris and I had an exchange of ideas.He asked me about commitment… responsibility…the difference between the two…my painful moment…my happiest moment…etc… Huh! Grabe ha! Ang “lalim” ng mga tanong ni Cris!
I left Cris at the cottage. Sumali ako sa habulan sa dagat with Real, Emily, Duploy, Janz and Brian. Ang sarap maging bata…carefree kumbaga!
We also had pictorials there.
We left Passig at around 5:30 PM. Sumakay na naman kami ng bangka pauwi. Then, pauwi ng Digos sumakay kami ng jeep.
REFLECTIONS: My trip to Passig helped me to the unwind from life’s pressures. When I was there, I still hoped that someday, “someone” and me will also go there together.
Before March 1 ’09
01 Mar 2009 Leave a Comment
in Love Life, Studies Tags: Love Life, Studies
The movie "You Changed My Life in a Moment" changed my mood this day.
I arrived at USEP at 11:00 AM. I went directly to the registrar’s office to submit my evaluation sheet. The staff there told me that I had to let our adviser in the Educational Management to sign it. I went directly to the office of the College of Education. I asked Ma’am Letty who would sign my evaluation sheet. “Dr. Vasay,” she said. So, I walked 20 steps away from the office, to look for Dr. Vasay. He was not there. I went back to Ma’am Letty. She told me that maybe Sir had taken his lunch.
I decided to eat lunch at the University canteen. I ordered “ginataang gulay” (my favorite–hmmm…my sister Laudy would always tell me that my mother always mentions my name everytime “gulay” is served), two pieces of lumpia shanghai, 1 1/2 cups of rice, one glass of mango shake and a piece of banana. I only paid P 35.00.
I looked for a table of which I was comfortable. I was about to start eating when someone called me. Iwas so surprised that it was Garnette. She was my classmate in high school. She’s even the salutatorian in our batch, almost nine years ago. I learned that she’s studying MS mathematics at USEP. So, while eating, we talked about our families, our careers, etc…i also found out that she is now Mrs. Garnette Mae Villaflor- Balacy. She has two sons already. We talked until almost 1:00 PM.
Garnette went to the library and I waited fro Dr. Vasay ouside his office.
While waiting, I managed to read the book of Paulo Coelho entitled “The Zahir.” I read the first 20 pages before but that time, I read them again. then, when I reached at the 3oth page, it was already 1:35 PMm. Dr. Vasay didn’t arrive yet. Then, I continued reading. At 2:30 I ate baked macaroni. Few minutes passed, I drank an 8 oz Coke. Dr. Vasay didn’t arrive still.
I went to the office of Ma’am Letty and she told me that Dr. Vasay was around in the morning. She told me that he would be coming.
I waited for Dr. Vasay since he had a class at 4:00 PM. Ouside his office, I met Ana, one of my classmates before. We had a chat. At around 3:40 PM, someone told her friend who was sitting beside her that Dr. Vasay would not be able to go to school because he had a flu.
Huh! I wanted to cry. Imagine! I waited there for about five hours! Then hindi dumating ‘yong hinintay ko. Huh! Buti na alng, nakita ko si Ma’am Susan classmate ko rin dati, kaya I asked her to please let Dr. Vasay sign my evaluation next Saturday.
What did I do next?
I went to Gmall. I bought keyboard which was requested by my co-teacher. I also looked for the cloth that my sister Vyjane asked me to buy. Unfortunately, there was no cloth like the one she was requesting.
I looked at my cellphone. It’s almost 5:00 PM. If I would go home, hindi pa rin ako makaaabot sa devotion at practice ng “Praise and Worship”. So I went upstairs. Nakipila ako at nagbayad ng P80. Saan? Eh di saan pa, sa sinehan! hehehheheh…I have to treat myself. Mas mabuti talaga kung may kasama. Hmmmm..I really miss him. I watched the movie with no friend o someone to accompany me. Pero, pagpasok ko sa sinehan, marami pa ang nakatayo. Mga iilang minuto rin bago ako nakaupo.
I felt relieved when I watched the movie “You changed my life in a moment”. I laughed a lot! Nakilig din ako! Sobra! Napaiyak din! Maybe it’s because I can relate in some scenes…Huhuhu…
Then, I went back to Digos. I went directly to church. The PAW team was not yet done in their practice.
All of these happened on the last day of February 2009, before March 1.
On Valentine’s Day
13 Feb 2009 Leave a Comment
Tomorrow is Valentine’s Day. Wow! What a nice feeling to think about it. Well, I haven’t experienced having a date during this so called red day. What I mean..a single date with special someone.
I experienced hanging up with my friends and spending time with my family on this day. Tomorrow it will be different because I will spend it with my pupils at Jolencio R. Alberca Elementary School. I have to conduct a NAT Review.
